Here. Now.

“…for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content” -Phil 4:11

Jesus always seems to lead me right where I need to go in the bible.  This morning, it was to the wise words of St. Paul in Philippians.  I am in a transition season of life. It is hard. Mainly, because I know what life looks like a few months ahead but I am not there yet.  And that means waiting…my least favorite thing.

Oh how Jesus knows exactly what I need. He is strengthening me through this waiting period. And it is such an answer to prayers…I ask Him everyday to help me attain the virtue of patience!  Yet here I am, still pouting at the fact that I have to wait a few months to move and start a new teaching job.


So as a came across Philippians 4:11 this morning, it struck my heart deeply.  I am constantly looking for the “next thing.” Whether it is a new ministry I want to get involved with, a trip that  I want to go on, or a new job, my mind is always searching for something new.  And this is dangerous. When we are constantly looking ahead, how can we possibly be receiving the graces God wants to pour out to us in the present moment?

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Yet our world loves to make us think that we always need to be striving for the “next best thing.”  I fall to this in so many ways. I am human, broken & weak. I set my eyes on earthly things and so quickly forget that the only important things come from above.

But it is okay. Because I have God and His mercy. I have His living word.  I have a relationship with Him in which I can pour my heart out, begging Him for patience, an ability to be present and content, and to have a heart that can receive His graces. Here. Now.

Thank you, Heavenly Father. I praise you for your unconditional love and mercy, even when I make the same mistakes over and over again. Help me be present today, in every moment and in every situation. 

Contently waiting,



The Comfort of Control

I love to be comfortable.  I love knowing what will come next, where I’m supposed to be, and what I’m supposed to be doing. I love CONTROL.

Over the past few months, I’ve gotten my world rocked with the realization that God does not call us to be comfortable nor does He call us to be in control. How humbling!

Thankfully, I have had a change of heart recently in regards to control.  Now, when I think about it, is control really that comforting? Initially, I said yes. But then when I thought about it more, really started to ponder it, I changed my mind. We live in a broken, fallen world. Imagine trying to control anything in it?  Sounds like a recipe for disaster to me.

However, I am human, so in the heat of the moment, I forget to give things to God and suddenly I am grabbing at something, trying so desperately to control it. And then I fail. And then I go back to my prayer journal and reflect on what happened and come to that consensus that is so easily forgotten…God is in control. Not me.


Example A: I’m currently looking for full time teaching positions starting in the fall. Cue CONTROL.  I fall into the trap of believing that I’m going to find the perfect school and I have to do all the things to make sure I get there.  And then I come back down to reality and realize that I need to trust God wholeheartedly and believe that whatever school He wants me at, He will clear the path and remove all obstacles. The control is completely His.  I do what I can, and let God take care of the rest. And He will.  Now THAT is comforting.

“Humble yourselves, then, under God’s mighty hand, so that he will lift you up in his own good time.  Leave all your worries with him, because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7

Humbling myself,



Interior Freedom

Interior: located in the inside of something

Freedom: the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved

Interior freedom. Two words that I know and understand separately, but have never put together. Until recently. And boy…am I glad I did.  It all started with the book “Interior Freedom” by Father Jacques Philippe. I bought it months ago and it has sat on my book shelf until this past week. God put the desire on my heart to pick it up and start reading it; it never ceases to amaze me how perfect His timing is.


So what is interior freedom? “Its purpose is simple.  Every Christian needs to discover that even in the most unfavorable outward circumstances we possess within ourselves a space of freedom that nobody can take away, because God is its source and guarantee.” (Interior Freedom, 9.)

How amazing is that? This freedom cannot be touched by external circumstances.  Nothing that is going on in my life can be rob me of this freedom. PRAISE GOD, because we sure do live in a messy and broken world.  I imagine this perfect little box over my heart, protecting it from anything and everything that could take away my peace and freedom.  How amazing is that? When God is the source, it cannot be touched. No matter what is going on in our lives, this interior freedom that we possess never leaves us. Even when we don’t feel’s there. Because God is bigger. Always.

So this morning I am praising God for interior freedom. When I cling to Him, I am protected from the brokenness and evil that wants to rip it right out of me.


Clinging to Him,