I am currently lost in what might just be my new favorite book. One of those ones that you cannot put down once you pick it up. I Believe in Love by Fr. Jean C. J. D’elbee is a “personal retreat based on the teaching of St. Therese of Lisieux” and it is simply magnificent.
It is filled with wisdom and truth – two things that this heart of mine needs in abundance. St. Therese fascinates me. She entered into the convent at age 15 and died at only 24 years old. And boy, did she love Jesus. She is known for her “Little Way” – the way to holiness for little souls. She was so fully aware of her brokenness and smallness and it was exactly that which allowed her heart to love Jesus so deeply. Because she was so little, she needed Jesus so desperately.
“The elevator which must raise me to heaven is Your arms, O Jesus! And for this I had no need to grow up, but rather to remain little and become this more and more” -St. Therese
The more I read about St. Therese, the more I witness humility. Humility that seems impossible to attain. How am I supposed to make myself small in a world that tells us we need to be big? How am I not supposed to take offense or complain when I am wronged?
Jesus. That is how.
“Everyone who exalts himself shall be humbled; and he who humbles himself shall be exalted.” -1 Peter 5:5
The type of humility that I see in St. Therese and desire in myself can only be given to me through Jesus. He will transform this prideful heart of mine. My prayer has been “Empty me, O Lord.” Empty me of everything from this world, so that I may filled only with you. Help me to love my brokenness and littleness; it is those two things that allow me to love and be loved.
“The vacuum which humiliation makes in us when we receive it rightly is an emptiness which attracts him irresistibly. He bends over the soul who loves its littleness and nothingness; He bends over it with an unspeakable love.” -Father Jean C. J. D’elbee